THIS IS MY REALITY
By: Lawrence Langman
Every night I dream of a life I once had.
Living in this hell, and the pain I feel...so bad!
This came upon me so suddenly, my life is all gone.
I sit at night, just wondering, what the hell have I done wrong.
Is this a penalty of the wrongs I've done in my life?
But if it is, then why my kids and why my wife?
What have they done to have to live among my hell?
To have to see my pain, the tears, and the financial drain as well.
I feel so hopeless in this world, as I watch my life fall apart.
Tearing every strand of my pride, and of my heart.
I look for comfort from my kids, and from my wife.
They have been there for me, thru the hard days,
And the sleepless nights.

I just wish that my side of the family would see the fight I have.
And realize I need them, more right now than I ever have in my life.
I need all the support I can get from anyone that can help me.
Because from my eyes, it's hopeless and "what a life" is all I see.
I've thought of ending this many times, over and over again.
Till the thought of my kids growing up without me sets in.

All I have to look forward to every morning that I wake,
Is the pain of reality slapping me in the face.
If I sleep I'm lucky, but the results are all the same.
I start each and every morning with pills to stop the pain.

This disease has taken everything from me that in my life I once had treasured.
My hopes, my dreams, my job, and my desire are all gone from me forever.
Everyday I think my life has little meaning.
I just wish my family would get involved with me and help me thru this fight.
Instead of ignoring the fact that this is real,
And show me I'm worth my life.

DEVOTED LOVE
By: Lawrence Langman
As we walked through the park, my lady and I.
Thinking how it ws when I looked in your eyes.
It's hard to say I love you when you're saying good-bye.
We're just lovers who passed in the night.
On wings soared a beautiful flight.
With too many dreams, I guess my love passed you by.
Without you by my side, my days and nights I'm destined to die.
You're in my heart forevermore, and your love always inside me.
If you ever feel you need me, I'm here, as long as eternity.

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